There was a long period of time in which I didn’t know that I had the ability to love anyone. It happened after Jeff, and it was there for such a long time. and even if I didn’t love him, I didn’t know how to love anyone else. and then I came home, and my ability to love people kind of came back.
I think I'm lonely
but I don’t really know? My friends aren’t here, I’ve been eating chocolate like nobody’s business. Feeling of love + extra estrogen = great feeling that goes away really fast.
Letters to you
Dear you, I’m really, really sorry. I’m really sorry that I caused you so much pain, and I’m sorry that I told you that I loved you when I knew that I didn’t. You know I only wanted to make you happy. and I promise that I can be the best friend that you’ve ever had, if we can get back to that. love, me.
my dad and I keep fighting. we finally got internet, but I have to use his computer if I want to use it. it’s kind of ridiculous. I have to work today… I wish all my friends from Purdue were here. Not all of my friends are home yet so it’s hard to find things to do. that and a lot of my friends have boyfriends to occupy them now. I want to go dancing!! I bought a red shirt...
today is the day I go home.
I have a final in a little under three hours. I’m kind of panicked, although also not because I think it will be easier than I thought, like it always is. I have so much to get done, but of course, I feel like I should study up to the moment I take my final. After the final, I’m gonna come home, and my mom should already be in the area. I’m gonna have all my art work, and I...
I don't know what to do with myself.
I just turned in a paper, and I have about 24 hours of free time, a little less. I don’t really know what to do with myself. I took my math exam this morning. I kinda wish I had studied a little more, but I guess I had some things on my mind. On the bright side, Jill, Pauly, and Pauly’s friend and I are all gonna live in an apartment next year hopefully. It’s gorgeous, but...
I'm sitting here,
trying to study for my final, and I have this massive cup of coffee in front of me, and it doesn’t seem to be working. I feel really sleepy, and I just wish I could wake up… occasionally, I feel like I’m going to puke. there is something seriously wrong with my stomach sometimes, I think. who knows though? I’m no doctor. I hate french vanilla. guh. gimme that black stuff....
“Surrounded by your glory, what will my heart feel? will I dance for you, Jesus, or in awe of you be still will I stand in your presence, to my knees will I fall? Will I sing Hallelujah, will I be able to speak at all? I can only imagine…”
1 Corinthians 13:4-8
“Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.7It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails.”
I’m really sad and I don’t know why. :(
Let me run with you tonight, I'll take you on a...
I love Tom Petty. I’m stressing out hxc. I would like to go ice skating soon please. I am so bored with my life right now. ha I guess it could be worse. The boys from upstairs gave us all candy and poems. It was super cute. I can’t wait to take a shower tonight. I’ve decided that if someone wants to be friends with me because they don’t really know me at all,...
Today has been a good one. :) I went to class, got some prints done, and went to class again later and I think I did pretty well on my exam. Then I got my art supplies and decided that I wanted to go to St. Tom’s. When I got there, I realized that not only did they have adoration going on, but they had confession, which I had been meaning to go to. So I did, and now I feel so, so much...
to mark my relationships by the amount of desire I feel for the person or they feel for me. Personality, values, thoughts are key. That is all.
it snowed last night
let’s state the obvious, shall we? haha this morning I had a big struggle with what I wanted to do for my “Design My Face” project. For some reason the art department has decided it would be a great idea to design ourselves in every single art class that we take. ha. I think I have come to a decision about my project though. Other than that I don’t have much to write...